I’m sure this post will disturb (or offend) some of you. To be honest I’ve never written this or said it out loud because it disturbs me but:
I find something very attractive about being sick.
Maybe it’s because my grandmother had Munchausen and I take after her? Or maybe I’ve had very good experiences when I was ill? As a kid it usually meant being babied, waited on, tv, etc.
When I got older, it became an escape. I quickly realized (by the 7th grade if not earlier) that being sick put an end to all my stress. It was an excuse no one could argue with. If I was sick I couldn’t possibly do the hours of homework I’d been assigned right?
But its more than that. At my most depressed, I would long to be in a hospital, to have an excuse to sleep. I’ve wished I could be diagnosed with some horrible illness. It would be easier for people to understand at least.
Maybe it’s because being sick is incredibly “in” at the moment? Try naming a romance where the heroine doesn’t have cancer. Or a teen soap where we shouldn’t sympathize with the sick kid. Not to mention all the charities, inspirational videos and other miscellaneous crap that litters our news feeds.
I can’t be the only one feeling this way?