If you check the time on this post you’ll see its 4 in the morning. I know right? What happened to all my good time management and staying on top of things this semester?
To make a long story short, I haven’t been sleeping the past couple nights. But its not my usual insomnia or anxious thoughts keeping me awake.
Last night at around midnight I was laying in bed with the lights off when I sat up to use the restroom. I can distinctly remember what I was thinking about (nothing important, a television show I used to watch as a kid). It had absolutely no connection to Gil and yet he crossed my mind out of the blue.
That would be weird enough as it is, but next I got this horrible uneasy feeling. I can’t even describe it but suddenly I had to turn the lamp on. Its like I’d thought of a horror movie or something.
Its the same tonight. I just feel…spooked, for lack of a better word. I need every single light on and I can’t seem to fall asleep. I’ve also been ridiculously tense lately, more than I usually am and thats saying a lot.
When I talked to my mom about this today she said it might just be a reaction to a traumatic experience, like PTSD. I hate to toss around diagnoses so what do you guys think?
Either way, I could really do without this new issue.