So it is currently 10:45 at night as I write this and I find myself in a bit of a pickle. As usual (because I have done this before) I must pull off an entire semester’s worth of work in the span of about 5 days. At least I think its 5 days, I’m not even sure of my deadlines.
And I know I probably sound like some kind of lazy idiot skating through life. Which is partly true I suppose. I am lazy, (although I like to think my excuses are quite good) but I’m certainly no idiot. That might be what got me into this vicious cycle. And like I said I’ve been doing this for a few years now.
So after years of therapy and medication, I’m trying something a bit different. Maybe if I’m held accountable somehow things will change. I mean I’m not sure if I’ve ever tried a diary before but something about typed words on a screen makes everything seem much more official and scary. And hey, someone could even stumble onto this?
So it is currently almost 11 on December 9th. I have reading to do for a middle eastern studies class I have tomorrow, which I haven’t attended in ages. And I’ve just found out I have an italian exam on Wednesday (I sort of don’t go to any of my classes). I also have a bunch of work backed up in that class which should all be done before Wednesday. I have a paper for another italian class due the 12th, my middle eastern studies final on the 16th, and 3 english papers also due around the 16th. I have literally done nothing.
So now is when I get into the plan-making phase. I should get my reading for class tomorrow out of the way. Then study and do the italian work thats due Wednesday and the paper thats due the 12th. I don’t have to get up early tomorrow or Wednesday so it all seems doable. Its just a matter of doing.
If I’m being honest I’m currently sitting in bed, in a slightly messy apartment, while I watch the Big Bang Theory. And if I’m being embarrassingly honest, its an episode I’ve seen a 1000 times. I know I have problems. So as soon as I’m done writing this I’m going to clean up (just the bare minimum) have a bath and then again being totally honest, probably watch Friends for a couple hours. But work shall get done tonight! Its in writing!